THE ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTIONS

when I was young I had a dream of becoming a doctor. but, the path to success is never a smooth ride it's filled with twists and turns.

I still remember the arguments I had with my parents about choosing the stream I wanted to pursue. they had their doubts since no one in my family even dreamed about being a doctor but I was resolute I knew what I wanted and I was willing to fight for it. finally they relented and allowed me to take the stream I wanted.

as I began my academic journey I set my sights on scoring better than my classmates. I worked tirelessly and to my delight my hard work paid off. I started scoring well sometimes even topping the class (sometimes). the sense of accomplishment was exhilarating.

but as time went I began to struggle. I found myself stuck in a rat race unable to muster the motivation to study. I made elaborate timetables and schedule , only to abandon them a few days later. the pressure to perform was mounting and I felt like I was failing.

and then there were the board exams. I told my self that I would score 90% or more. but the reality was far from it I was studying for the exams mere hours before appearing them. the anxiety was palpable and I felt like I was walking into a nightmare.

now the boards are over and only one month is left for my NEET exam and I am feeling like I am failing miserably. this isn't what I envisioned for my journey. I am supposed to be confident focused determined. but instead I m filled with self doubt and uncertainty.

this is the most unexpected phase of my life. I am struggling to come to terms with my reality. I am questioning my abilities and my future feels like I am lost in a maze with no clear exit in sight.

but as I reflect on my journey, I realize that this is a part of the process, its a test of my resolve, my resilience and determination. 

I have two options either I can choose to let my struggles define me or I can use them as an opportunity to learn and grow.

as I look to the future I know I have a long way to go and I will continue to face challenges but I am determined to push through and to prove myself that I am capable of achieving my dreams.

this is my story , a struggle story of an aspirant. Its a reminder that success is not a destination but a journey a journey that I am exited to take one step at a time.